~*Ball and chain*~

Today on Cherry Moods FM.. Every time I start feeling complete, there has to be something, to make me feel crazy and some times even sad... I'm talking about those times, when you know that you have everything you want and need, but then this one thing gets in your way and you start to feel like you're lacking something, someone or somebody soooo much.. Why? If I ever told you how I felt.. Oh, wait, I did. But you never admitted, that you felt the same way too. You always claimed, that it's a "just friends" situation. And every time I convinced myself it was, you came crawling back and I felt your hot breath up on my shoulder.. Why? And the only question that crosses my mind is WHY? Why am I like this? Why I have such a big urge for drama in my life? Why can't the happy ending just come now so I could live calmly and quietly... It's just me, nobody else, not You, the one who always crosses my mind when I don't need you most, not him, who's always by my side, and always ready to give me anything I want.. It's just me. I need these feelings inside of me, I need to have some fire. I just can not live normally like other people do. I cannot sleep, cannot eat, cannot draw, write or work, if everything is going steady. It's crazy, huh? But that's how it is. You're the ghost of my past, present and future. You're a shapeshifter, a myth. You're my sweetest desire and worst nightmare. I hope some day you'll go away and never come back. I hope you'll never leave me alone in the everyday dullness. I'm attached to you, like a ball to the chain..

I need your patience and guidance And all your lovin' and more... I need to hear that you'll die for me Again and again and again... I will love you for the rest of my life.